Stranger

Unwillingly,

 I jumped on the train of life,

blinded by my pride,

I felt I could conquer

everyone in my sight.

Friends and enemies,

I recognised at once,

the useful and the useless,

I sorted out on the shelves of my mind.    

Believing I was always right,

I started aiming towards the greatest heights.

Along the trails of this train of life,

I kept ignoring and repressing

all that was hiding in my heart of hearts.

A perfect stranger You appeared from the start,

but with every step and every stop,

I started piecing up all Your parts.

You had a turban, flute, peacock feather,

and a smile

that couldn’t belong to anyone

but my Dear Friend Divine.

We have passed a few stops on this train of life,

and I stumbled once or twice,

 yet, You, Dear Friend Divine,

never let me fall behind.

On the final stop,

You grabbed my hand,

and said:

‘Are you ready to dance till your final breath?’

Thus, from a perfect stranger to my heart,

You turned into my eternal Friend Divine.  

Always loving, always caring,

always guiding my heart of hearts

on the path towards Your Divine embrace!

Dreamer

Dreaming my way through life,

skipping days, weeks, and months,

lost in my mind,

I barely feel I am doing anything right!

I wake up every day with lofty ideals,

aiming for the highest goals

of serving the hearts of all souls,

yet, I am still asleep behind the wheel

 and barely can I see

all the snakes nested within my will.

Lust, anger, and selfish desires,

are poisoning my conceptions

of what truly means not to fall

for any deceptions.

Maya (illusion) covers my senses

from top to bottom,

constantly sprinkling me with

the desire for fame, power, and fortune.

Indeed, 

I am acting, thinking, feeling, and willing­–

but am I truly awake, or am I still dreaming?

‘Dream on, dream on!’ –

the voices inside my head keep on shouting.

Dream of what exactly–

repeated birth, death, old age, and disease?

Nah, it’s time to wake up!

In the distance,

there is an alarm clock going off,

sounding very mysterious, very ancient,

almost mantra-like.

Indeed, I can hear now,

the sound of the Call Divine!

Hare,

Krishna,

Rama!

Half-awake I aimed my attention at this Call Divine,

and then I remembered the loving hand of my Dear Friend Divine!

He’s been holding me by the hand all along,

trying to wake me,

inviting me to join His Play Divine!

It’s time to wake up,

let go of fear,

and simply forget all that is not dear!

It’s time to wake up,

‘cause dreams are fun,

but life is real!  

Fear

Surrounded by darkness,

doubting every step that I make,

creates an atmosphere

in which is hard to create.

Not knowing the direction,

striving for perfection,

keeps my heart in isolation,

and I end up in frustration.

Praying day and night

for Divine revelation…

alas, reality does not meet

my expectations.

Fear is crawling

in the chambers of my heart,

dictating if I take

left or right.

I struggle to fight back,

but without the mercy

of Your Divine hand,

I don’t see any chance

for me to get out!

‘Hey, brother fear,

I tried diplomacy and

kind words,

but you refuse to hear!’

Thus, there is only

one thing left to do

and that is wage war against you!

Let me call upon an army of saints!

Let me call upon the Divine Names!

Let the scriptures become my armour!

And let my japa mala become my sword!

‘Dear brother fear,

I solemnly declare,

that it is time for you to prepare,

to lose the grip of my heart!

I shall fight you from within

and from without,

I shall fight you from the left

and from the right,

I shall fight you from below

and from above!

There is no place for you to hide,

for I have the Divine on my side!

Thus, prepare yourself for battle,

as I am tired of you

telling me how to behave!

Thus, prepare yourself for battle,

as I am tired of you

stopping me

from stepping into my gladiator nature!