Beggar

These days,

 I have been living in confusion,

daily striving for material illusions,

and honestly

forgetting how to avoid

my mind’s constant delusions!

I find myself

on the field of battle,

completely stripped-down

of my shield and armour,

almost dropping my axe of knowledge,

and kneeling defeated at the feet of Maya (Illusion)!

Completely forgetful,

kneeling on the ground,

with the last of my powers,

I raised my hands up in the sky,

begging the Divine,

for His Holy sign!

‘Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

I possess nothing

but my will to beg!

Make me wander from place to place,

Make me serve in certain ways,

Make me dance, sing, and play,

till my final days!

Allow me to fight

all the serpents of the past,

and let me rise up from the dust

of my burned impressions!

I have only one weapon against illusion

and that is shouting out Thy Holy Names!

You have made me a beggar, indeed!

I beg, and beg, and beg

to always hold Thy Holy Feet!

Suddenly,

a ray of light

illuminates

my heart

and I stand up

ready for the fight!

By a drop of mercy,

I remembered now,

that a simple call to the Divine,

is all that I’ve got!

The Battle continues,

but I am prepared now,

as my Dear Friend Divine,

 has got me by the hand

and continues to shine light

upon my desert-like heart!

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

your desperate servant

is begging at Your Holy Feet!

Roles

I woke up in this

material body one day

and started immediately

countless roles to play.

Playing day and night,

I presumed that I was always right,

but often forgetting that

only acting out of Love is might!

Once,

 I played the role of the

obedient son,

who had to act

in accordance with

his parents’ wishes.

Once,

I played the role of the

trustful friend

who had to act

for the sake of his brother

in times of need.

Once,

I played the role of the

courageous hero

who had to slay

some dragons

and safe some

beautiful maidens.  

Roles all we play,

of teachers,

of politicians,

of fathers and mothers,

of workers and artists

and of intellectuals and engineers.

There is no other way,

but roles to play,

and mostly we have no

real say

‘cause life throws us away!

Role after role,

day after day,

life after life,

we play and play and play!

Alas, forgetting in this whole role play

that there is only one real Role to be,

and that is a servant of Thy Lotus Feet!

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

wash away all these temporary roles,

and let us remember our absolute one

of a servant of all!

Allow us to transcend

and stop to pretend

that we are anything but a

simple servant of all!

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

show us the way

of actually entering Your Divine Play!

This servant of yours

is making a plea!

Burning

Living with material desires,

forgetting the means

that will take me higher,

my heart is burning

day and night,

in the reactions

of my misconceived

and misdirected actions.

It is hard, indeed,

to perceive any higher truth

when my mind is

is on fire.

Nonviolence, truthfulness, compassion…

nah… these only become

empty signifiers

and servants

to my basic desires!

‘Let me exploit,

let me enjoy,

 let me destroy,

all that is holy,

all that is sacred,

all that matters!’–

this is the only mantra

that dictates my endeavours!

Pathetic condition indeed,

but this is the reality of

choosing Maya (Ilusion)!

The mind burns as if

it’s been bitten by

many hooded serpents of

material desires!


The heart burns as if

it’s been melted in lava!

The body burns as if

it’s been dissembled

limb by limb!

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

when will You release

Your merciful shower?

When will You put out

this raging fire?

When will You send

me guidance

in the form of Your beloved

flower-like devotees?

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

allow us to transcend

any worldly desires

and take shelter of

the cooling rays that

come from Your Lotus Feet!

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

I know You are simply a thief

that collects only hearts,

but without Your mercy

how can I offer my

burning heart!

Thus, I petition to Your attention,

my heartfelt intentions

of purifying my heart

and taking shelter

of Your Lotus Feet!

This forgetful servant

is making a plea!

Expand

Oh, dear mind,

are you not tired of

always thinking

of ‘me’, ‘mine’, and ‘I’?

Endless days,

endless nights,

you are cycling around

and around,

always coming to the same point

of satisfying

 your own senses,

while disregarding the hearts of others!

Always coming to the same point,

of deriving pleasure

from being cynical and envious

of others!

Always coming to the same point,

of cheating yourself

with the latest distractions!

Throw away these mindless patterns,

abandon all useless matters,

and simply grab hold of the

lotus feet of all saintly teachers!

Cry, shout, and beg for their mercy,

as they can ignite the fire,

that will start a revolution

within your heart

and there will be no trace of any

mindless chatter!  

Their mercy will indeed

bring you to your Friend Divine,

Who will allow for your heart to expand!

Then, the mind will be quiet and

the heart will speak!

It will expand beyond your kin, nation, and land,

even beyond your precious life!

Your heart will expand to all creatures that fly,

to all that swim,

and to all that walk and run!

Ultimately, the heart will know no bound,

while jumping, dancing, and singing for your Dear Friend Divine!

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

simply help us overcome

our conditioned minds,

so, that our hearts can expand,

beyond the conceptions of ‘I’ and ‘mine’!

Calling You!

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

it’s me again!

I know You must have had enough,

but, hey, I won’t give up calling You!

I keep swimming in the dualities

of this material world

yet, trying to call out for You,

alas, I guess that is what hypocrites do!

The sages of the past promised me

that Your Names Divine

will intoxicate my mind and heart,

but chanting Them,

I feel nothing else, but deaf and blind!

Oh, the sages

 they promised,

that the tongue will dance

in my mouth,

tasting the transcendental sound,

and experiencing the bliss of being unbound!

Alas, all I feel is as if

I am chewing the ground­,

tasteless, bitter, poisonous,

trepidations in my heart–

no trace of transcendental sound,

no trace of ecstatic dancing all around!

Anyway, I will keep calling You,

for I have faith in promises,

for I know that pleases You,

for I have nothing else to lose.

I will keep calling You,

so, one day the bitter taste goes far away,

so, one day my poisoned mind becomes unbound,

so, one day my heart dances all around!

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

please, kindly,

reveal Yourself

in Thy Holy Name!

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

now is the time,

to let me taste

the boundless bliss

coming from your Flute Divine!

An Ocean of Flowers

Oh, Dear Friend Divine

there is an ocean of flowers

and I am one of them!


I am waiting amongst

all the other flowers,

hoping against hope,

for the moment when You notice me!

Oh, when will that day come

when You send Your

most Beloved Servants

to come and pick me up,

so, that they can put me on

the flower garlands that

decorate Your gentle neck!

Oh, when that day comes,

I will be finally able to

render a little bit of

service to Your Lotus Feet!

Oh, when that day comes,

I will be able to intoxicate You

with my beautiful fragrance,

I will be able to beautify Your Smile,

with my exquisite colours,

oh, I will be able to charm You

with my tender petals.

Oh, when that day comes,

finally,

I will be there,

witnessing

Your Flute playing,

Your dancing,

and Your swaying!

I will be there,

witnessing

Your joking words,

Your gambling games,

and Your swinging plays!

I will be there,

witnessing

Your cheating ways,

Your swimming days,

and You hiding in the hays!

Until that day comes,

oh, Dear Friend Divine,

there is lots of work to do,

there are lots of souls to serve,

in the here and now,

alas, there is plenty of suffering

all around!

Thus, it’s time for You

to ignite my heart,

so, I can intoxicate others

with the nectar coming from

 Thy Holy Names!

So, one day You can

notice them amongst

all the other flowers in the ocean!

So, one day You can

call for your Beloved Servants

to pick them up,

and make a flower garland

out of their hearts!

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

I know it’s a lot to ask,

but hey,

 I have no other task,

except to wait and pray

for that day to come!

Shell

 My heart has become

an impenetrable shell

that even You,

Dear Friend Divine,

are having troubles

unlocking.

I have been building day and night,

with my distracted mind,

this wall around my heart!

Envy is my bricks,

lust is my cement,

anger is my water,

and greed is my fix!

Labouring day and night,

I am building my fortress

of isolation,

of misidentification,

of frustration,

and adulteration!

Distant and foreign voices

are spinning like rollercoasters

in my head:

‘You are not enough,

you would fail,

there is no point of this or that!’

A constant reminder

of past mistakes,

of roads unfollowed,

 of dreams forgotten,

and of opportunities abandoned!

The days I had full faith,

full trust,

and lack of fear,

seem from another lifetime!

My heart has become an impenetrable shell, indeed!

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

all the holy scriptures,

all the saintly persons,

all the divine well-wishers,

they promise one thing­–

that Thy Holy Name

is the cure for all,

misfortunes,

delusions,

and confusions!

Alas, it seems,

You have neglected me,

and cheated me!

But I am not surprised at all,

as You are known as tribhanga (three-fold bend),

and Your ways, indeed,

they are crooked!

I have nothing else to do

but hope against hope,

for the transcendental vibration

coming from Your flute divine,

to penetrate my impenetrable heart!

I have nothing else to do but wait for You,

to penetrate this shell-like heart of mine!

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

simply hear my cry out

and make me dance

till I find the way out!

Turnings

My head has become a rollercoaster!

Thoughts, feelings, impressions,

suggestions, questions,

and all kinds of ruminations,

are spinning up and down

the corridors of my mind.

The turnings of my restless mind

has taken hostage my aching heart.

Turning to the left

where pride and lust

have made a nest

and are laying the eggs

of anger and contempt.

Turning to the right

where frustration and desperation

have built a house

and are bringing up

their kid lamentation!

Oh, Dear Friend Divine

how can one be humble,

how can one but not stumble,

when the mirror of the heart

is so full of dirt indeed?

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

how can I chant Thy Holy Name,

how can I enter Your Divine Play,

when the turnings of the mind

are polluting my intention?

Oh, Dear Friend,

I beg for Your Grace,

so, that the turnings calm down,

so, that the mind stops blowing down,

so, that the heart can become the king

and clear everything out!

Oh, Divine well-wishers,

oh, Divine Teachers and Preachers,

glance upon my wretched heart,

so, I can trust again,

so, I can find the way,

and ultimately serve all of you

till my final day!

This aspirant servant

submits his plea!

Lost

Walking down the

forest path

veering to the

left and right,

for a moment

I believed

I was always right!

Suddenly,

I stepped on the

thorns of pride,

and lost everything

that I hold tight!

Then, the mind,

started acting

not so kind

and fooled me

so I became

completely blind!  

Now, lost in the woods,

completely blinded by

my moods,

I forgot the purpose of

of my walk.

It seems

there is only one thing left to do

and that is always listen and pray to You!

It seems I am gonna have to trust,

transcend all my lust,

and simply beg for your Embrace!

Actually, being lost in the woods,

does not seem that bad,

when You have me by the hand!

Actually, being lost in the woods,

allowed me to value

every step of the path

and simply surrender

fully my heart!

Yes, sometimes,

I will stumble,

but this is how

You make me humble!

Yes, sometimes,

 I won’t know the way,

but this is how

You like to play!

So, dear Friend Divine,

let me lose my way,

let me stumble,

make me humble,

but let me also

enter Your Divine Play!

Reckoning

Oh, dear Friend Divine

it’s time to draw the line

and see where we have come

up to this time.

Words were said,

mistakes were done,

now lessons have to be learned.

We can’t move forward,

unless we sit down

and think it over.

We run after lofty ideals,

and preach all kinds of spiritual truths,

yet we are faltering behind,

drowning slowly in our own fear.

We go left and right,

offending everyone in sight,

yet proclaiming that

Devine Love is might!

We stumble on the rocks of

greed, envy, and lust,

yet we are shouting Thy Holy Name out,

and asking everyone else to follow.

Hence, oh dear Friend Divine,

You took everything away,

and never let us had a say.

Well, we reckon this is Your

special mercy

that comes to very few, indeed!

They say it’s special

‘cause your Divine Intention

is to always increase our

inclinations

towards Your direction!  

Indeed, reckoning is upon us –

‘Which way do we take now? –

The one that leads to hell

or the other that leads to You!’

I guess, we

have to sit and listen

for Your Flute Divine

to penetrate our

stone cold hearts!

I guess, we

have to be patient

and wait for the wind of change

to blow in the Right Direction!

I guess, we

have to pray

for your Divine Intervention!